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Dear Journal,

Today is going a lot better for me at school. I am actually talking to someone. But the teachers are being assholes. My weekend was alright even though I had to deal with Alyssa, Alyssa, Alyssa all weekend. I hated having to hear about alyssa all weekend long. I drove to Lewistown with my brothers and went to my grandpa's house a few times to clean...I hate cleaning. But anyways before the graduation I had to clean up and shit like that and alyssa didnt even have to or say thank you for cleaning up for her guests! GRRR.....Well I am making this one short. But I may be back later today. I am not sure...I am busy studing for Semester Tests and Finales for tommorrow. Later--Court

全职妈妈

今天看了朋友的博客，才猛地意识到自己放弃高薪高职来做全职妈妈已经一年了。当然，这其中的半年我还是个准妈妈。前些日子常常困惑是否应该坚持做全职妈妈。好多猎头也都在劝我'出山'。可是看了朋友的文章，很有感触。工作和孩子哪个重要？其实归根结底的问题是自我价值和孩子的健康成长哪个重要。在我上班时候，阳阳的脾气相当不好，动不动就发火，还十分倔强，不讲道理。自从我陪在她身边，和她分享生活中的点点滴滴，这个孩子也像变了一个人似的，有礼貌多了，也很大方。生人面前也可以表演节目了。母亲的陪伴对于孩子的心理发育来说，真是十分重要的。还是上次朋友的话有道理，老人带孩子，关心的是孩子的现在，而父母带孩子，关心的是孩子的将来。所以，如果经济许可，妈妈们的确应该在家里陪着孩子们度过孩子成长的关键期。

谢谢shirley，让我觉得自己的选择是正确的。

well i dont really know if im going to keep up with this probably not!well my has been pretty shitty and its not getting any better!i am originaly from ukraine odessa by the black sea! I AM IN LOVE with my country i love to speak russian and i love how we dont have a curfew or age limits there!this summer has been amazing ihad my first real kiss and i got hooked on to smoking and drinking but im not exactly sure if thats a good thing over here! i really miss leving there and i wish i could go back!lets get a little a head of things really fast!just 3 days ago i have crashed my friends sisters car!what happend was we went to a kick back and i started to take shots i took 3!
i went outside to smoke while every one inside was playing beer pong and every one was even 3 on 3 i feelt lonely so i went inside and protended that one of the guys called me and said theres a party in sunset beach!well they all went inside the guy that emily liked sat with her and her sister to play poker or what ever while the other 4 went upsatirs to smoke pot i dont do that anymore but i went upstairs to keep them company!after all there was a guy that i liked there hahaha;)!

so i go up with my beer and i start feeling woozy and i spilled the beer the brother of the owner got really mad at me so i went down stairs and started crying because i know how i would feel if some one did that to my house!every one said it was ok and there not mad!i tryed to call gavin and auryell to tell them why i was crying but they both hung up on me and probably thought i was some drunk bitch!what ever so then i go in the back yard to have a smoke with all of them so i go andd ask if i can get my purse to fix my makeupso they gave me the car keys so i go and get into the car i get my purse and get my makeup so i decide to turn the music on and then i turned the car on then i see a neighboor standing out side and now the car is in the middle of the road so i start freaking out and think i can act cool and pretend it was my car so i start driving it and it goes really fast i dint know what to do so ...................................

Hey!!! well todayi stayed home from school..... i am so bored and i have nothing to do....i have to clean my room cuz thats why i told my mom i wanted to stay home!!! lol my room is a mess but i dont feel like cleaning it but im going to lol i have to do laundry too, YUCK!!!!!! i hate cleaning.... so i miss my boyfriend very much and my stupid cell phone is shut off because cingular is STUPID and lie to their customers...GRRRRR!!!! Well thats all i have to say right now.... ill be on later.... i guess

Mwah!!!!

Keshia

I would like to say that there is a lot of stuff on my mind. I would like to tell my father how much of a terrible father he has been. Ever since you have had my baby sister you have been totally not the same. You don't really want to do anything with me. You just want to have your own little family. You are never ever going to see my son/daughter when I have a kid because of how you treated me. I don't like how you don't see much of your family because of how your wife doesn't like them. That is NO excuse because you used to be real close with them and we used to be over there all the time. I wish that you could be the father I used to have but I am guessing my wish isn't going to come true.

Next off you know things can come true and fathers and mothers can come to their senses and wisen up but you know you shouldn't cut them out of your life for good. I just would like to because of theway i get treatedby him.

Ashley

Hey how are you? I am doing fine. I am sick and tired of everything that is going on. well I got a phone call yesterday since it was my birthday from my ex boyfriend and he was like ashley i have a great surprise for you and i was like what is it and he was like I am going to be coming home sooner then you think. He is on a bus right now coming home and he left yesterday at 4p.m. I am so happy he has been calling me like every hour on the hour so he can talk to me. He is suppose to be charging his phone at one of the bus stations so he can talk to me when I get out of school. I got someone to work for me tonight so I can pick him up and now I am not even picking him up but we are spending time together. My mom's boyfriend volenteered to pick him up because he is going to be in Harrisburg and he knows where he is going to get to the bus station. I am going to be like a little kid standing at the door waiting on him. My little sister called me yesterday and was like happy birthday sissy. I love my sister so much and I miss her so much. I think on wednesday I am going to pop out and see her for a few minutes. I think that she would love that. I would stay longer and hang out with her but yeah i don't have the time anymore to do that. Okay you know I am a little big for my age. I weigh about 150 and I am wearing this tank top but it covers my stomach and it is a little tight but it's not that bad. If it was bad my mom and gram wouldn't of let me walk out the house today. These girls who are bigger then me and they are in the fucking popular group are picking on my weight and they said that I shouldn't be wearing shit like that. Atleast I look decent because you know I don't always want to be a bum like this one fat bitch in my class. Also this girl is always trying to prove me and my friend Brooke wrong on everything and it pisses me off. Well I don't know if I told you this but my friend is pregnent and she is having a baby girl. She is going to be naming it Brenda LeeAnn and I am so happy for her. I got to go I will talk to you later.

Ash